In her first interview since Russell Armstrong‘s suicide, Real Housewives star Taylor Armstrong says he physically abused her and told her, “I’m afraid I’m going to kill you one day.” As for those who say she shouldn’t accuse him of domestic violence since he can’t defend himself, she says, “He doesn’t need my protection anymore, but there are a lot of women in this world who probably do.” Taylor tells Entertainment Tonight, “He grabbed me by the neck and shoved me up against the wall, and he said, ‘If you ever make my children a pizza without a vegetable again, I’ll kill you … He would grab me by one side of the hair on my head, and bang the other side of my head against the car.” Taylor also reveals that she and her 5-year-old daughter Kennedy were both in the house when Russell’s body was found. Taylor says she didn’t tell the girl that her father commited suicide, “I just told her that daddy got sick and he died, and that we could pick a star in the sky to be daddy, and she could talk to him every night.” [E!]